MY MENOPAUSE
And I’m afraid ~ yours too

I know that I am different now
I know I’m not the same
There is a demon in my mouth
That makes me act insane

I feel so hot and sweaty now
My mind is full of rage
I’m sure this shouldn’t be happening
Not yet, not at my age

The loved ones who are around me
I hope that they do stay
But if I was dealing with me
I’d surely run away

I’m on a roller coaster
It sends me up and down
How can I go from laughing?
To crying on the ground

It happens in an instant
From happy to distraught
I think to every girly
This message should be taught

Don’t ever be complacent
And treat life with contempt
Cherish every moment
Every single one of them

One day it will descend on you
From somewhere out of hell
You’ll think the maddest witch on earth
Has blessed you with her spell

Life is not a mystery
It neither is a game
For once this happens to you
You’ll never be the same

So how sorry can I be?
It’s my hormones it’s not me
So don’t you worry or criticise
You’re not being told any lies

This is my existence
A strange and manic place
I do not mean to hurt you
Just don’t get in my face

It’s strange to feel this anger
It’s weird to feel this rage
I’m on the herbs and calcium
I’ll be on them for an age

And everything’s so black and white
There is no middle ground
My emotions are so up and down
They make my head go round and round

It’s so damned hot throughout the night
Central heating I don’t need
I know what will calm me down
I think I’ll smoke some weed (not really)

My memory has abandoned me
My balance, not too good
Restful sleep, is in the past
Anyone not happy can kiss my a**e

So if you should come across me
Crying like a buffoon
It won’t be long before I start
Laughing like a loon

So there you go, this is my lot
Do I like it? Not a lot
But this is it, another night
I’m sure everything will be alright

Shirl x x x x

Dedicated to me – writing this brought me back from a very dark place

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